Awkward ?

Dear Blog,

Today was a really good day but a long one. It all started to drop off the kiddos and then went to town center to help out for the friends & fam day. It was lunch time and I met up with my friend A.B, we had desserts at moxies which was quite amusing. Us being girls, all we did was talk and not finish our desserts, "Nigel" who was our server was quite confused cause we didn't really finish it but yet all we had was water, but it was all good cause I had the best time with her. We both agreed he was a very young and good looking guy, but he screwed up in the end when he screwed us over with our change, hahah !

Anyways, right after having desserts we met up with M.A, we walked around the mall, I went to buy something and we did our "girl stuff". I must say it was a pleasant surprise in what ALL happened today. Finally, we met up with mr. hulk. After waiting for him for like the longest time, we caught up with so many things, from problems to joking around. I got emotional at the same time since some things did hit me hard. MOVING ON...

We went to timmies where I usually hang out at and decided to eat some food. We met up with R.T, and just chilled and talked about stuff and just had a great time. Time passed by, M.A. and I were in the washroom fooling around like crackheads, it was a really good time. We come out of the washroom and HE was there. Surprisingly it didn't feel awkward, I guess all I was waiting for was a greeting. A single "hey". Disappointed at the fact that he left without saying goodbye to everyone and that was disrespectful, not only that but why would you get mad? Shouldn't I be the one that should be mad?

I didn't really understand that, I am a new Hanna Rose Sia. Many changed and still going to. What's new? I got two new tattoos, changed my hair, lost 30 pounds, shopping limits, work, alone.... All problems from the past will be solved now. Time was wasted and I want my future to be good. I know Melody & Dream ALWAYS wanted me to have that. I just want to say thank you to Ameera Bertumen, Richard Tuazon, Maryann Ambat & Kenneth Envidia for today and tonight. Thank you for understanding and helping me through the toughest times. Officially one problem down and more unsolved mysteries to go.

Time is going by so fast and it's running out. Decision MADE for MTL & I am ready. Christmas is going to be HELL without everyone that I love, but what's new? I am used to be left at, right? Hope all is well & tell myself always smile in front of many and show them that everything is fine, show them nothing can bring me down, show them who you are and show them no emotion but only to myself.


Melody & Dream, mommy will always love you no matter what, will always pray for you. A promise is a promise and I will never break it. I love you and I miss you. All I do is cry each and every night wishing you can come back to me, the happiness that I had left is now gone. Rest In Peace Baby.

- Hanna Rose Sia