Deja Vu

After a long day, as usual I was really tired.
Had dinner with you and I must say it was awesome.
Note to you:
It was nice seeing you after awhile, it was nice talking to you after awhile.
It was a repeat all over again except with two different personalities.
I felt like we were matured about it and we were ready but had those moments where we just couldn't "talk" about it. Even though I had a great night just having some time with you. I know in the beginning it was like when we were young kids and we didn't know how to approach each other. I couldn't keep that awkwardness and I just wanted to feel good that you were there, for the first time. When I mean that, I mean, I felt good..no great that you came for the first time and being there for me to listen to me, my apologies and etc. I never felt that you were there for me or either listened to me attentively about situations, after tonight it felt good just cause I never felt the love you offered to me. It was enjoyable seeing you come in my house and having the dogs be with you. It was just like old times, even though it was hard for me, it felt nice that no matter what you were welcomed in my house. I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do. I thought I was doing well until my point of view just changed, it was more of I still have feelings and it all came back. Thank you for tonight, just for everything.

Would I be crazy to say that> i still love you

On Another Note:
Thank you Charles & Ameera for being there for me :)

Charles: Thank you for keeping my faith alive with your advice, I will ALWAYS remember it "you and him can be with someone else that will get you guys ready for the future, it'll help you guys adapt from your past and help you in the future, may be you guys are really soul mates, may be god is just testing your limits right now."

Ameera: your advice "it will get harder with each day that passes by. and it will get harder with more things that you see that reminds you of the good ol' days. but there will be great days ahead of you and those days that pass by, there'll be even more easy days than hard. god doesn't punish those that love those around them"
advice #2: god wanted you guys to be really ready. like in a way... is preparing you for the future, and when it happens... no matter how long or how hard it has been... it'll be great.

I love you Charles & Ameera..you have no idea!!!

- HRS