death

March 1, 2009 = one of the most hurtful days of my life.

MORNING: Ralph, Julian & Megz left the house after sleeping over and I had to go to work. I was getting ready to work and all I remembered was blanking out. A few hours later, I woke up and I was on my couch, Ayla had to call in work for me cause I lost my voice. (sucks ey)

Slept the whole day. didn't eat, didn't move. woke up when sherry came over and then passed out again. woke up cause people kept calling me. UGH. anyways, woke up late at night and went to the washroom to throw up :| mom heard me and she came out to check up on me. few minutes again, i passed out and fainted. a few hours later, i woke up and all i can see was the color white all around me. no lies i thought i was dead :| . but where was i? i was in the hospital all over again, i opened my eyes even more and i see baby on my right holding my hand and when i look up, i started crying. it was deja vu. all over again. all the pain i went through over dream and melody was hitting me once again. i felt lost, i felt pain but was happy he kept me strong being by my side. for once i had someone there. thank you.

scary thought?: i saw my grandpa once i was waking up, was it a sign? but anyways, happy birthday lolo, rest in peace .. i love and miss you so much.

as i'm here lying down, i've never felt this pain ever, emotionally & physically. but i have to say thank you for being there, you have NO IDEA how much it means to me for you being there and waking up and knowing that someone cared. thank you for everything, thank you for keeping me strong through all this. <3


Rest In Peace LOLO <3 - Happy Birthday ! I Love You.