Saturday Night...

Home early on a saturday night. Tired from work because they told me to come in an hour early which I was so not ready for. Last night was amazing with the family just enjoying the night. After work today went to Maya's daughter's first birthday. Seeing her and her family being so strong just made me even happier for them, not only that but to keep my head up high.

Camila looked so adorable in her pink dress blowing her first set of candles, how awesome. I can tell Maya was so proud of her baby girl growing up. As her whole family celebrating it with her, we godmother's felt even prouder to know that we were selected and that our babygirl was growing up. I haven't seen these girls for so long, but the reunion tonight was just AMAZING. Girls, you are amazing in every single day. I know we had all our "baby" story, but keep your head up high. && Jen you're next ! I can't wait :)

Tonight going home early made me feel lonely. Why? Mommy left for Edmonton this morning and won't come back later this week, noone's home. So what did I do? Took the dogs for a walk, that walk was actually really good since I really needed to get some fresh air and think about all these things happening in my life. Finally got in and just thinking of packing up for the photoshoot tomorrow morning & then work =(.

As of right now, I am enjoying life with my modelling career, finishing my schoolwork, working full time, having an awesome family, friends who can be there for me no matter what & an amazing boyfriend who never lets me down. But yet, there's this huge thing bringing me back telling me that I need to change something or someone. I've been trying to settle down with all this drama but yet little things come up and it just brings me down.

Lastly, to end this. Going to list what to pack up, then pack up, have a glass of wine and study by the fireplace to fall asleep. Shoot @ 8 am in the morning and need major rest since I have work right after. Can't wait til Montreal with the crew. Dream's death is coming up and it's hitting me really hard. Sometimes I just wonder how things would be right now, where I would be standing and what I would be doing. I miss you so much. <3

- HRS

p.s. hope everything turns out well