Question

do you ever think about the past? do you ever think to yourself if you had a chance to change something from the past, would you change something? i ask myself that today after a long day of work and surpassing the cold. i believe that things happen for a reason. those reasons turn out to be solutions from problems and makes the person you are today. i truly agree that life is essential and short. you never know when to lose it and you never know what happens. i've lost many people close to my life this year. i think to myself everday, why did God take them away from me? Is it cause they've served their purpose already on earth? Is it because they've done something to deserve it? Is it because they made wrong decisions?

I look through the past and see myself going through the same ol' thing over and over again. now i look at the mirror and i see a woman who changed her life around. i see someone who chose the right path to guide her future in the long run. i see someone who works hard to reach her goals. now i realize how truly important life is, it can be short, but live it. never waste time, never take advantage. just do it. don't give up and never say no. don't let no one bring you down and never be negative.

each day that passes by, i always think what if this happened, etc. etc. then i look at it deeper. what if i stayed with my ex boyfriend, what would happen and where would i be now? sometimes it gets to my head that i get so distracted. even though i am happy with my boyfriend now, you tend to sometimes think about the past in what if this happened. but don't look at it as a bad way, look at it as something to laugh about in a few years. it's like that feeling when you see your ex-boyfriend and the rushes come back like it wasn't finished. even though you ignore it, you always think that somehow and some day it'll settle down later down the road.

i ask you this question everyone; are you happy with what you're doing, who you're with and would you rather go back to the past and re-live it?


- HRS