Depression HITS

1. as for this moment, i'm living life but yet all of a sudden depression hits me.
mom's leaving TONIGHT (FML) to go on vacation for her birthday and the worst part was just telling me yesterday that she was leaving. the house by myself for two weeks, clearly i'm going to hate it! i'll miss her so much =(

2. what else? sister won't be here this week too cause she'll be busy with work and school that she'll be at kuya's. BOOHOO*

3. not working for the past week is a KILLER but excited for tomorrow and this week's transfers. i miss working but yet it's killing me not doing anything but spending money.

4. cancelled trip to montreal cause i have a show for fast & the furious movie, the good thing is the show but i'll miss going to montreal :(

5. daddy's not in the country (the usual) so i feel more lonely !

6. boyfriend is so fucking far away from here and we had the most stupidest talk ever! had our FIRST argument but everything cleared up in matter of hours when we needed to cool down, realized that both of us was wrong but we learnt from it.

7. last but not least, the more i feel lonely, the more i'm being crazy about missing dream and melody, it's getting to me like there's no tomorrow and it's driving me CRAZY! on top of that, i miss you so much, i don't even know what it is but RIGHT NOW i'm missing you like i've never done before. i hate playing the broken hearted girl. on top of that, my OWN boyfriend makes me want you more for what he really wants. this kills and i hate it....i love you....still

the top 7 things bothering me and it SUCKS !
goal: this week needs to get me in a good mood (BIGTIME)
training session needs to continue =)
need to put myself together

- HRS